Thursday, June 25, 2015
My joints ached. I was constantly feeling tired. I went to the doctor and had blood work for everything under the sun. When it all came back clear, I knew I had to make a change. First I started making and drinking Kombucha which helped tremendously with my joints. Honestly, I had really hoped I could just take some medication and continue on with my life. That wasn't the case. But I still felt exhausted every morning when I woke up. Then I pulled out my summer clothes, and I was really sad at how snug they were. They fit, but they were snug. I had a million excuses why I couldn't work out. I had no desire to run, which is very unlike me.
I loved the idea of being challenged to do this. I loved how it prepped you to make long term changes and it wasn't unreasonable. I have seen my friend apply this concept to the long term. I was hesitant to spend the money. I really was. I spent a week mulling it over.
Then I did it. I bought it. And I told Sam he was doing it too. He had every criticism under the sun. He claims he was just picking on me. But he didn't flat our refuse to go along with me for 21 days. He jokingly called it his "21 Day Fast". Which isn't true at all since he doesn't even eat everything that he can have. It is true, I mourned that first day going to the grocery store. I passed the chips and part of me wanted to cry. As I walked down the aisles really thinking about the food we were going to eat, I longed for the stuff I rarely bought anyway! What was wrong with me?!? I knew this was good, I knew choosing to put wholesome foods in my good was right. But how I wanted the foods that I couldn't have. Then I was faced with a heart issue. That is a post for another time. God was opening my eyes to a few things. I came home and texted my friend about my mourning as I walked through the aisles. She encouraged me, having already been through this before knowing how awesome I'd feel.
For me, this isn't about losing weight. People look at me like I'm a little crazy when I say I am doing this. "Why do you have to do this?" This is about me finding my fitness groove again. This is about me making choices that are healthy. I knew I needed a challenge. I needed to do this with someone else, to push me when I just wanted to fall on the sofa and be lazy. I love a good challenge, especially when I am competing against me.
Today is day 4. I have drank more water than I can even imagine. Yesterday I joked that it was the 21 Day Cleanse. Every day is about making better choices. And hopefully by the end of 21 days my family will be more on board than feeling like I am dragging them with me. ;) Because I refuse to make a different meal!